Wednesday, April 27, 2016

Library woes and some Personal Rants ~

I've been so sick lately, which is not good because it's EXAM SEASON. Yes, it's that time of the year where all the things you've done in the past few months all comes together… I'm trying to keep myself together and not get sick, but it's hard when all I do is sit in the library, daydreaming of the hot guy next to me (not that there are any in the library) and thinking of how nice it would be to finish my exams and get out of here.

No, really, I've been missing in action. Saying I'm a bit stressed is an under-exaggeration. My degree is hard, my exam technique isn't great, I'm really worried. I know this is somewhat of a long post, but it's been a while since I've sat down and typed out my thoughts. It's a free-flowing exercise of sorts. It helps with everything. I just feel very hollow sometimes, when there's no one around me, or when there are a million people around me but I'm all alone in my head. It's not a bad thing, but sometimes I wish I was somewhere else.

I bought a giant duck from the gift store for about 10 pounds, just to cheer myself up… Isn't it cute? It's definitely not as cute as my dog though, who is relaxing at home whilst I study my brains out. I'm really nervous, it's only a few weeks until my exams. I hope I don't go crazy before the exams :(

Everyone's really hardworking in my university. I'm surprised, but I guess here I'm quite average. I am not the best, but I hope I'm not going to fail my exams. I need to de-stress really badly. I have tried retail therapy, but it doesn't seem to be working. Maybe I should spend more money on shopping online, as it does seem to cheer me up - though it's terribly distracting.

I've also been SINGLE for way too long! Sometimes, I just wish there's someone to take care of me! But I guess I have lovely girl friends here to support me, which is something I'm very grateful for. My parents are also amazing, and they're visiting me in the UK for a day tomorrow. I'm so excited to see them, although I am embarrassed to admit that I've not been my best self lately. I just need a break, and I can't wait for summer. Summer will be fun, though I have to do some internships. It will be much easier than exams though.

The future's also so uncertain… I don't know what I'll do after graduating next year. Maybe I should continue doing another degree… but time seems to be running out. I'm so worried sometimes…

These are some of my favourite pictures from my year. Since my term is coming to an end, it's about time to do a yearly catch up post soon. I took these pictures in London and Edinburgh, and it was amazing. I met some lovely new people, new friends, and had an alright year. One thing that is new is that I've been single for the first time in many, many years, so this year is definitely an unusual year. I've decided to focus on myself instead of a guy, which really opened my eyes to what's out there… I love the city of Edinburgh, it was magical. I even went inside a little alleyway which had fairy lights all around the area. 

Isn't life strange? One year it will be happy. The other year, it will be sad. This year has definitely been somewhat of a highlight and a lowlight, because I've been rejected, pursued, heartbroken, enlightened and also extremely grateful for my support system. I love my girlfriends, they're there for me when I need them, and I can't help but say how much I love them. 

I love blogging for all of you too. It gives me so much pleasure and happiness, chatting to all of you, knowing that what I write will be read by all of you girls. It means a lot to me, so thank you. Thank you for sticking with me for these 5 years since I've been blogging. 

Edinburgh is so beautiful. I went there last term, so it was a while ago, but I like how the buildings light up during the golden hour. I've managed to capture the city at it's twilight moments. It really lights up. I think it deserves to be called one of the best cities in the UK, although I haven't been to too many. It's one of my regrets, not being able to travel as much as I'd like. Perhaps I'll go somewhere alone next year, and escape reality for a while. I hope I can go to Greenland to see the northern lights. They're so beautiful. I like colours and abstract things, not concrete, artificial glows. 

All I hope now is that I pass my exams! To all of you out there with finals, stay strong, healthy and idealistic. Remember, the exams do not define you, and neither do your grades. I have to admit, however, that it does matter a little bit, at least for now. I'm going to try my best, and forget about it because after all it's the effort that counts. 

How do you beat stress? Give me some tips! 


  1. I know how you feel, I was there.

    Had my very last exam a little bit more than a year ago and my stress level was so high back then that I became very sick, and my period didn't come for a few months--that's how stressed I was.

    How did I get through all of that 'alive'?

    I tell myself: this is going to happen only once in my life. All exams, uni days, it is all going to be memories. I wish it to be the best for me to rekindle in the future.

    This is all going to pass. So make the best from it.

    Now I no longer study, currently working now and I miss all the hard times I had during my last few days in University.

    If you want something to relax yourself, do what you love. I mean, positively. Hang out, watch movies, take a holiday, write some stories, play games, whatever you enjoy.

    Do your best on the exams! :D hugs

    1. Thanks my dear! You're one of the coolest people I've met here! Take care!

  2. I always find a good cup of tea and a bath sorts me right out! Particularly if it's green tea and I have a new Lush bath bomb to use :) x

  3. First of all, thanks for visiting my blog and following. I'm following via GFC as well, please. Appreciated! :)
    Sorry to hear, -hope you get well soon. Its a real bummer to fall sick at when exams are in session. Life can be funny sometimes, but unfortunately we gotta keep moving.
    When I'm stressed, I play music and dance alone at home. I also like to treat myself by going to the cinema or have a meal alone. I also read inspirational quotes and pray.
    Hope these help you. Keep your head up, beautiful. :)

  4. Lovely photos! I´m having an exam season as well, cause I´m graduating now, so I know how it feels, haha. Good luck with your exams! :) ♡

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